Frustration!!!

[ben08]

Diagnosed in 1991. I'm 25 now, and am unsure if I've ever cared about this effing disease. Basically I am so afraid of it that I do whatever the hell I want. My AIC is like 7.2, so not horrible, but I know the constant highs and lows affect everything from my weight and my sleep, to my emotional well being. I cry when I go to the doctor because I feel like the numbers you see on the pump or the glucose monitor are a constant judgment/reaffirmation of my failure to conquer this disease. I have been lucky and have no complications, yet. I am just waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I guess my question here is whether or not y'all have similar feelings, and if you do/did, what actions you have taken to overcome them? How do you find the motivation inside you to take control and put yourself and your health first? To let the fear that takes hold of me everytime I have to take my bloodsugar, not control me?

[Betesboy]

I hear you brother.

I was diagnosed in 1999 at age 25. So, I consider myself lucky since I didn't have to deal with all the problems you had to growing up with diabetes. I can't offer a lot of advice, but a few thoughts:

1. Wellbutrin XL, I take an anti-depressant. I read somewhere that people with diabetes have high rate of depression. Nothing to be embarrassed about and it makes me feel better.

2. Think about the future, presumably you will settle down someday, a wife, kids, if that's your thing, they are going to want you around for a long time, you have to take care of yourself to ensure this.

3. Complications - I was a terrible diabetic for many years, I enjoyed being able to eat whatever I wanted and stayed thin by not taking insulin. The trade-off, I have severe retinopathy among other complications. The worst problem, ED. At age 32. Not only is it embarrassing but what a bummer. I sure wish I could turn back the clock and take better care of myself.

Stay positive. Check your blood often. Get on a pump. I love my Omni Pod.

[eea142]

Im the opposite... I tend to obsessive over my blood sugars and if I did the right amount of insulin.... the doctors actually had to tell me that I was probley makeing my sugars worse by stressing over them.

It maybe annoying or stressfull but you can do it! At least we can do something about Diabetes even if it's only a small thing.
Good Luck

[mysnackrifice]

Diabetes comes along with so many things. I went through a long period of not caring. I tested maybe twice a day, sometimes. And then I'd go through spurts of responsibility where I'd test 6 times a day for a couple of days and then slack off again.

It didn't really do me very well. I'm 22 years old. I've had diabetes since I was six. My vision is awful. Without correction, I can't even walk to the bathroom without tripping over one of my stepkids' toys.

I just found out last week that I'm pregnant and what should be an exciting time is just a constant worry for me. Every high blood sugar I have I feel like I'm failing my child. I know that's not so, but you know what has been helping me deal?

I blog, I talk online with other diabetics. I'm on Diabetes Daily, the Diabetes OC, I just got back on here. Hearing other people's frustration makes me feel less alone. It's ok to get mad, frustrated, I'll go as far as to say it's ok to take diabetes vacations like I used to...I just hope I didn't ruin anything for myself from here on out.

Guilt and frustration. That's what diabetes gets us.